Not perfect.

I have done wrong for so long in life. I hadn't cried to God for help when I was in need for it. I am not worthy of such forgiveness, my Lord. I have disappointed you time after time but yet you love me. I am sad to know that I was blind for so long and not knowing all I really needed is you. I have found you once again and I will never let you go. You love me so much, even if I had done you wrong. I love you so much, my Lord. Words couldn't begin to describe how thankful for such a perfect God. I look back and wish I could slap myself for being so stupid for so long. I was clearly not thinking right, but that gives no excuse for words, things, or anything I done at that point. It is a shame that I did. I wish I could take it all back but I know it's too late. Fill me in with your holy spirit, almighty God. I always feel your presence now when I pray or when I think about you. (Which is all the time!) I feel more energy, life, fun, happiness then I have in a long time. And that's exactly what I needed all a long. <3

I love you. Infinity x Infinity x Infinity x Infinity + 1 <3

Dear God,

I thank you for every thing you've done for me. The smallest to the largest. Today, I thought was the day I would've met you my lord. I had felt scared and hopeless when I felt the car's breaks slam down before almost hitting that car. I know we didn't hit the car but it was certainly close. I had never felt so paralyzed in fear before like my journey down here was over.

Dear God,

I am a sinner. I am ashamed for who I am and have hurt myself before. I am ashamed to disappoint you, my father. I have found peace in myself after finding you, alas, again. I, thank you, my dear lord for having such mercy on me. You have opened up my heart and mind to things that I have never would have thought of. I love you so dearly much with all my heart and I know that you love me too. I am fond by the greatest work you have which is nature. I am grateful to be in the presence of life to do my Earthly deed that you have in store for me, my father. I am sorry that I have disappointed you over and over. I ask you to guide me a way every day to show me the right path to step on and to follow as I continue my journey. I am so grateful to have my family and my friends. I am so blessed to have a wonderful man and to have our love mature with each other and to follow your word. I pray to you to help my man to follow the word and to support me while I teach him the right ways to you. I am grateful that you have taken my pain away, alas.

Thank you, Jesus. For being in my heart and correcting my soul. Thank you for opening me up to a much better mind than I had before. I love you so much. I will be grateful for the rest of eternity.

I love you.

What is it like to be saved?

I will tell you. It is a lot happier and fulfillment in life than to turn away. 

A lot of people will tell you that God is a fairy tale but some people grew up with either strict teachings and rebelled against God, some grew up not knowing God and first time hearing sounds silly, or some people grow up with parents who WAS NOT believers. And you know what, that’s okay. People have their opinions and saying, it’s freedom of speech. I am here to tell you that this isn't a fairy tale. There is a lot of religion out there, most of them will tell you the same thing I am about to tell you, but fear not, there is proof, evidence, long tales, dreams, near death experiences with this. There is a Heaven and Hell. 

So to begin with answering the question —

It feels absolutely refreshing. I feel more happier than I was when at a time I had forgotten my father. I was a little girl when I had asked Jesus to save me. I was so excited, I do not remember the time/date, but I do know it was Fall and I was on top of the mountain with my dad, asking questions about the bible and God. I told him “I want to be saved, daddy. I want to go to Heaven!” But, I had been going to church every Sunday, praying, and already believed in him before I got saved. 

Now you might ask, what is the difference in believing and being saved? There is a HUGE difference. Believing is you know that God exists and so does a Heaven and Hell. Being saved is being reborn again. You are asking him to save you from the evil from the world and when you die, you will for sure go to Heaven for eternity. Our God is amazing, he’s loving, caring, gentle, forgiving, but yet we are to FEAR him. Why you ask? Because he is the one who GAVE you life. He can easily stop it any given moment. He is the one to hold your every breath, cell, atoms, etc in your body together. People don’t understand why Christians or people who are saved get so defensive in times of when someone says BAD about God. It’s because he is the one who holds us together and he can easily take it away. People don’t seem to care though, but that’s why I am here to tell you that he loves you and wants you to make the RIGHT choice. 

So, what is it like to be saved?

Promising, lovely, more big-hearted, forgiving, peace, happiness, no worries, no bad thoughts, feel more live, etc and so on. It’s probably the most powerful feeling in the world to know that your eternal is saved by grace of God. <3

Amen.